Author: sonsot

I am conducting two performances in my moment. My lesser performance is that of a person in a world that is larger than me. I perform this role in my secondself and thirdself layers. I am only pretending. I am performing personhood. My greater and more important performance is that of creator. My godhood. While… Continue reading I am the creator, not the creation

I must not endow my creations with creativity. In How to forget who I believe I am and remember who I truly am, I introduced the concept of “endowment”. This is worth exploring separately. I wrote: When I think and reflect — the motion of my thirdself — I often assume perspectives that are not… Continue reading Endowment

Who I think I am and who I really am are two different things. I think and behave as if I am a person in a world full of other people. I believe I have problems stemming from my essential personhood. Physical and health problems. Existential problems. Financial and circumstantial problems. I believe that I… Continue reading How to forget who I think I am and remember who I truly am

The potent truth hides in plain sight. My true creator self is everywhere I look, talking to my lost self of awakening. When I search for “the nature of reality”, I now receive this: Reality is the sum or aggregate of all that is real or existent within a system, as opposed to that which is only… Continue reading The nature of reality

My awakening is literally a wound I must clean and disinfect so I can heal. Like any wound, I must wash out the debris, sterilize the environment, and give it time to repair itself. From the moment I awaken, my wound manifests as a secondself I experience as thoughts, feelings, and desires, and a thirdself… Continue reading Healing the wound of awakening

There is a truth, and my decision about its nature is all that stands between my illness and recovery. The truth I choose will either imprison me, or set me free. I have only to decide: what is truth? If I believe that my thirdself is the source of reality then I believe that truth… Continue reading Potency is the measure of truth

I was correct when I began to order my journal entries in days and years since my own birth, rather than since the birth of Christ. Though they are all digitized, I cannot find them right now to reference, but I know I was up in the 10,000s for days, which would have made me… Continue reading The real timeline and repossession

I am dead. I know that I will not awaken again. I cannot open my eyes because I have no eyes. I hear a voice, my voice. It speaks words, but they aren’t really words, just very clear sentiments expressed feathersoft. Where am I? I ask myself. But I know the answer. I know where… Continue reading How it will happen

October 28, 2022 Who I am, and who I believe I am, are at odds, creating a rift I experience as an awakening into my life of desire. The selfist model is the path to rediscovering, believing, and being who I am by understanding and redirecting my desire.  Who I believe I am I believe… Continue reading What I know

What is healing? I will be fully recovered when I no longer awaken. When I no longer exist under the mistaken belief that I am a person in a world. When I no longer desire or yearn or want or perform personhood. Is death and healing the same? Yes, so long as I define “death”… Continue reading About healing