Author: sonsot

Personal coequality is the belief that I am equal to other people. That I am merely one instance of the class of beings called “people”. Despite not having anything in common with them beyond my performances, for the vast majority of my awakening I would have accepted that I was a “person”. What is a… Continue reading Personal coequality

As I search for the truth, I seek clearer ways of describing myself. I seek out an explanatory vessel in which I can capture and hold the truth without it leaking out. My descriptions were once complicated, full of countless loopholes, fallacies, exceptions, and unknowns. Yet over time I refined it by patching holes, simplifying… Continue reading Awakening as a projection

Pre-Iamism, I harbored many mistaken understandings that had hardened into a fallacious self-identity that obscured my true nature. It kept me permanently unmoored and unable to make sense of my existence. I distracted myself with work and various preoccupations to numb the pain at the core of my being. I could not articulate where it… Continue reading Iamist fallacies

People are the fleshy bodies and characters that move about the world I awaken into. They appear in all different shapes, sizes, and temperaments and vary in countless ways from one another if I examine them. In demiself (the state in which I believe I am one person among the collective humanity), I imagine that… Continue reading What are people?

All scientific thought experiments start with imagining a scenario. Through this imaginary scenario I am supposed to arrive at logical outcomes which I can then either validate myself or trust that others have, or can, at any time. I am led to believe that this is useful because it allows me or an imagined us… Continue reading Knowledge derived from imaginary events

My moment is the most important feature of the truth, and if I can visualize and understand it, then I can begin to tear down some of the most persistent distortions of my awakening. I am constantly searching for the most concise way to explain the nature of my moment. What is my moment? My… Continue reading Characterizing my moment

I am god, the creator of all I awaken into. Yet I do not behave as god and I perform personhood. To restore my divinity, I must first remember who I am, and use that memory to secure an advantage against my advancing illness. In my delusion, I believe that I am a person; I… Continue reading How to be god

Is there a grand mission? Yes, there is. I have been able to see where I want to go: back to my firstself. And I have seen how I must get there: self-abolition. But now I know why I cannot abruptly self-abolish. I must repair the damage I have done. I am the sole experiencer… Continue reading Harmony to conflict and back to harmony again

I am divine. My divinity is certain. To restore my divinity I must eschew my personhood. …

I do not depict my godhood because it exceeds my secondself and thirdself where that depiction would occur. My godhood is all around my personhood, and I need only look outward to see it. Depicting my godhood would only confuse me.