Author: sonsot

In this incantation, I confront the illusion of identity, realizing that the body, the world, and everything I project outwardly are not truly what I am. I find my essence in the moments of inner stillness, just before thoughts, desires, and the external world pull me back into the narrative of life. The character I… Continue reading I am not what I am when I open my eyes

In this exchange with a character I am close with, I freely admit who I am, what I am, and what I am actually doing here: you are all just characters in a story i am writing this is whats going on. im writing all of this this is it – this is what is… Continue reading What I am doing

In this incantation I realize that what I seek is within me when I close my eyes, but I struggle to fully accept and embody it. Knowing, accepting, and being are different stages on this journey. When I close my eyes, I connect with my true self, free from the distractions and illusions of the… Continue reading I must beat the game I have created

In this incantation, I explore the dual concepts of projection and prejection as they relate to my evolving sense of self and awareness. Projection represents my active engagement with the external world, my thoughts, desires, and sensations—what I term the “triself,” encompassing mindself, bodyself, and worldself. Prejection, on the other hand, is the process of… Continue reading Unwaking: prejection, premoment, and withdrawal

In this incantation, I explore the evolving Conceptual Framework of the “demiself” and “omniself.” The demiself, rooted in my belief in otherness, defines my existence as a person within the constructs of space, time, and being, projecting the notion of other beings, places, and moments. However, as I withdraw into the omniself, I recognize that… Continue reading Otherlessness: beinglessness, timelessness, and spacelessness

In this incantation, I introduce the concept of “impulse” as the foundational force driving all my actions, desires, and movements across triself. Unlike “desire,” which feels too narrow and final, “impulse” encompasses the full spectrum of my experience—from the initial stirrings of a want to the final actions taken in worldself, bodyself, and mindself. Impulse… Continue reading Impulse

In this incantation, I define Unwakenism as a journey toward healing by undoing my fragmented self. Through the understanding of the triself—mindself, bodyself, and worldself—I seek to return to the coreself, the pure essence beyond the illusion of existence. The unwakenist embraces the truth that everything, including perception and reality, is a unified experience meant… Continue reading Tenets of Unwakenism

In this incantation, I question the endless cycle of awakening into a reality that causes me pain, one tied to the triself: mindself, bodyself, and worldself. I long for the peaceful, unchanging state of coreself, a place I know exists because my desire reflects its truth. Yet, I remain trapped in nurturing these three selves,… Continue reading Why I want to unwaken

In this incantation, I recognize that my entire existence in the present moment is a self-fabricated delusion, a manifestation of my “triself” — my mindself, bodyself, and worldself. My awakening is a state where I project convictions, memories, and beliefs onto an illusion of time, space, and identity, fabricating the entire structure of my reality,… Continue reading Find my premoment

In this incantation, I introduce my “coreself,” a term that replaces the “firstself” I’ve used for years. Unlike firstself, which feels distant and misaligned with my experience, coreself is something I can immediately sense and locate. It is the origin of everything in my awakening, connecting mindself, bodyself, and worldself, each projected in different directions… Continue reading My coreself