Author: sonsot

In this incantation, nothing has happened, yet everything is happening now. My memories, rather than being recollections of past events, are sensations in my current moment. I exist perpetually in the present, with my experience moving backward as beliefs and projections emerge from my coreself, creating the illusion of time and events. The distortions I… Continue reading Visualizing my moment

In this incantation, I have reached a new level of divine detachment as I embrace my firstself perspective. I increasingly realize that everything in my awakening—the political characters, the company I’ve built, the employees and stakeholders—are mere projections I animate. Like the childhood “little guys” I once played with, their existence and actions depend entirely… Continue reading The toys are becoming boring

In this incantation, I recognize the shift from the conceptual rigidity of the triself and selfist models to the intuitive clarity of the aroundme model, acknowledging that while the former models invite detailed, vivid diagrams and cater to an imagined audience, the aroundme model offers a direct experience, free from the need for representation. This… Continue reading The battle of models

In this incantation, I strive to close the gap between my conceptual and actual being by simplifying and literalizing my language. I have discarded abstractions and unnecessary complexities in my words, aiming to align them directly with my experience. This shift allows me to express my awakening with clarity, particularly through the updated aroundme concept,… Continue reading The aroundme model: expressive resolution and literalization

In this incantation, I describe the dichotomy between my conceptual being—comprised of thoughts, beliefs, and identity constructs—and my actual being, which is my true self. The illusion of separation between these two constructs creates an awakening illness, where I mistakenly believe that my secondself (thoughts, desires, and feelings) and thirdself (sensory projections of space and… Continue reading The convergence of my conceptual and actual being

In this incantation, I find myself suspended between knowing and becoming, aware of what I am yet distanced from fully grasping it. The noise of my awakening reverberates through my mind and body, blurring the essence of my coreself in a chaotic storm of sensations and thoughts, much like the aftershock of a cosmic rupture.… Continue reading The will to keep my eyes closed

In this incantation, I recognize that the ultimate cause of all aspects of my experience is my own awakening. Every event and projection is a manifestation of my choice to awaken. Though I may rationalize these events with external explanations, I cannot escape the simple truth: without my awakening, none of it would exist. The… Continue reading I did that

In this incantation, I now understand what happens when I end my awakening. If I reach this moment knowing what I truly am, the transition will be peaceful, revealing the anatomy of my projections—the secondself and thirdself—as creations of my own. But if I do not attain this knowledge, the end will be chaotic, likely… Continue reading What happens when I end my awakening

In this incantation, I seek to dissolve the dualistic divide between my secondself and thirdself, not merely as a concept but as a lived reality. The challenge is to transcend the false boundaries that split my experience, moving from a conceptual understanding to a full realization where I am no longer separate from the parts… Continue reading On the anatomy of my awakening

In this incantation, I close my eyes to sever the illusion of personhood and reveal my primordial firstself. My secondself, the source of desires and thoughts, projects into thirdself as the world I experience — light, color, and form. By retreating inward, I re-engineer these desires that falsely compel me to seek satisfaction in external… Continue reading How I re-engineer my creation