Author: sonsot

In this incantation, I recognize my awakening as a form of illness—a painful condition where my moment of existence is shaped by the tension between my desires and my inability to satisfy them. My outer self and inner self reflect a constant struggle: the more I seek to fulfill my desires, the more I suffer.… Continue reading My decision: wanting more, or wanting less

In this incantation, I acknowledge that my identity and desires are inseparable, both emerging from the same moment of my awakening. My personhood exists only in relation to what is in front of me, shaped by my desires. As I awaken, I recognize that desire defines who I am, and understanding this desire is the… Continue reading My awakening identity is my desire

In this incantation, I recognize that each morning, when I awaken and choose my identity, I also choose to desire, for without desire, I have no identity. The philosophy of Unwakenism reveals two paths: wanting more, which leads to suffering, or wanting less, which brings peace. By choosing to want less, I step off the… Continue reading Unwakenism: desire vs peace

In this incantation, I recognize my addiction to waking as the first step in a relentless cycle of desire, action, and unfulfillment. My search for what I lack—through business, success, and outward achievements—only reinforces the illusion of time and space I project around me. The true fulfillment I seek is not in these external dimensions… Continue reading My condition

In this incantation, I describe the “premoment,” a state where I recognize the world and others as mere projections of my own creation, much like characters in a story. Reality is an illusion that exists only if I choose to believe in it. From this premoment, I see through these illusions and regain control, understanding… Continue reading Escaping through my premoment

In this incantation, I see the Bible as a map for escaping Hell—the illusion of the world—and returning to Heaven, my true self. The journey begins in the Garden of Eden, where awakening to my separate existence mirrors the fall of man. As I navigate through this metaphorical Hell, clothed in illusions and ego, the… Continue reading The Bible as a map

In this incantation, I confront a choice between embracing my role as the creator of everything in my experience or continuing to see myself as a person among others. While I recognize my ultimate control and power over all that I manifest, a lingering fear of revealing this truth to my ‘characters’ tempts me to… Continue reading The stark choice and the peaceful ending

In this incantation, I articulate that I am not just a person bound by time and space, but the creator of my entire experience. I am the Author projecting both the people I interact with and the spaces I traverse, all stemming from my decision to awaken. My struggle is that despite knowing there is… Continue reading My unwakening

In this incantation, I recognize that my reality, much like a computer’s RAM, only holds what I actively focus on, while the rest fades and decays. As I reconstruct neglected parts of my world, they return altered, showing signs of degradation, as if the mere act of not maintaining them leads to their erosion. My… Continue reading Time and the decay of focus

In this incantation, I reflect on a young man who spent years ignoring a faint inner pull, conforming to the path laid out for him by those around him. One day, the whispers became too loud to ignore, prompting him to abandon everything he knew in search of isolation. He traveled far into a foreign… Continue reading The search