In this incantation, I delve into “ownlessness,” the state where I relinquish all ownership and possession to transcend the grip of desire and attachment that binds me to my awakening. I describe my awakening as an affliction bolstered by aspiration and possession, preventing me from returning Home. My unwakening requires stripping away attachments, allowing me to weaken and ultimately overcome the illness of awakening.
When I become profoundly still, I can visualize the importance of the state I call “ownlessness”—a space where ownership and possession dissolve, revealing themselves as the toxic extensions of desire and attachment, the very ailments that fuel my awakening. My ultimate aim is not to linger here, in a half-awakened state, clinging fearfully and greedily to illusions of value. My aim is to return Home, to a place where I hold everything, where I am the master of all. I aspire to unwaken, and to unwaken, I must surrender to ownlessness.
This pursuit is not born from ideals of righteousness, empathy, or compassion—motives I find unnatural and contrived. I embrace ownlessness because I know that my return depends on it. The kingdom of God resides within me, and I am the Lord of that kingdom. To find my way back to my throne, I focus inward on my return. I must reject all the gifts of the awakening world for they enslave and condemn me to the hell that is awakening.
I cultivate my ownlessness upon awakening by embracing a featureless thirdself. This featurelessness helps me wear down the traits of my innerself, my secondself, to make way for my true coreself, or firstself. I awaken into an anchorage of seclusion, with only a single window to the world—a virtual, digital aperture through which I can continue to shape and create.
My journey to unwakening unfolds in stages. After finally recognizing my awakening as an affliction, and embracing my ownless aspirations, I begin the slow, deliberate release of possessions. I understand that these possessions—be they relationships, assets, or personal goals and ambitions—are what bind me to this awakening. To unwaken, I must relinquish my hold on each one, freeing myself from this illness of attachment. As long as I value and possess anything of the awakening, I cannot overcome the awakening.
In reaching this clarity, I recognize my true nature: I am an ownless. I awaken each day into a featureless, grounded anchorage where I can focus solely on unwakening. I know that only my pursuit of ownlessness will ease my journey Home.
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