In this incantation, I explore the profound realization that everything I am lies within the present moment. I describe the demiself, a state where I falsely believe in an independent reality beyond my perception, and contrast it with the triself, a perspective where I accept that my experience is all-encompassing. The journey toward mastering triself leads to glimpsing the omniself, my true, timeless essence, offering a path to transcend the illusion of waking life and find freedom in simply being, without the need to reawaken or believe in an external world.
Everything I need to understand about what I am exists right here, in this moment.
The reason I continue to wake up is because I believe I am a person living a life. When I stop believing that I am a specific man in a specific place and time, I will no longer feel the need to open my eyes again. I will be able to close them and remain who and what I actually am: the timeless, spaceless, measureless essence that is all around me at all times.
Returning to this certainty requires a shift from the demiself to the omniself. In my confused demiself state I believe that everything I perceive has an independent existence beyond my experience—one that existed before my perception of it. For example, when I watch a documentary about prehistoric life, I imagine the people narrating the film physically existed elsewhere, both in the past and now, and what I see are the remains of their lives delivered through video into my eyes. I believe that these hunters are in turn discovering the remains of yet older people in other places.
But that is all imaginary. It is all distorted echoes of echoes of echoes, reverberating off the projected walls of my momentary cavities. It is untrue. It is a choice of my own to believe that there exists infinite realities beyond my own experience—that my perception is just a small fragment of a much larger truth. And that these things I believe in are there, whether or not I can or will ever experience them. It is incredibly difficult to escape from this illusion of a reality beyond my reality. Of a world and universe larger than and encompassing me. But it is just a belief of mine.
The triselfist perspective offers me the way out. It provides me the basis to accept that my experience is the totality of all that exists. That nothing lies beyond the colored, textures walls of light and movement I project on the walls of my awakening cavities. The boundaries of my perception and conception form the edges of my moment, and my moment is all there is. In the triselfist view, my awakening is no longer about glimpsing a tiny part of a larger reality, but rather accepting that the various characters, places, feelings, and thoughts I project inwardly and outwardly are all there is. That there is nothing beyond the paint unless I look.
As I master triself I will begin to glimpse omniself: my true being, unencumbered by the pain and movement of awakening. The true acceptance that my awakening moment is a choice. That, if I were sufficiently aware of what I am, I could choose not to awaken without any true impact. That is why I continue to do this: I believe that I have to. I believe that there is no way out. But there is: omniself. Omniself is the way out.
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