In this incantation, I describe spending my entire awakening crafting a virtual environment where workers of the world can harmoniously operate, while I remain physically anchored in a simple, nondescript space. My interactions with the outside world are minimal, limited to essential tasks like securing meals. As I build and manage this company, fully owning it, I witness how it reshapes my worldself. What once seemed like conflicting desires—to improve the world and to escape it—are now understood as two unified aspects of the same journey, leading me toward an eventual escape.
I spend my entire awakening crafting a virtual environment where all the little workers of the world can operate together in harmony. Aside from the regular visa run when I have to exit one imaginary country to a neighboring imaginary country, only to re-enter again, I do not have to move. I spend my entire awakening in a nondescript space similar in quality to the place I am before I awaken, or when I close my eyes. I still have to interact with a local village person who cooks my one daily meal and one person who buys my groceries and performs errands. All other people I interact with are constrained to this virtual environment and a few other environments constrained to the dimensions of a laptop computer and a mobile phone.
This virtual environment is a company that I fully own, run, and manage. It is a company that will have tremendous value according to the characters. Value that any beneficiary can use to buy and possess things and experiences in this world. But as I build this virtual environment and organize all of the people of my world into productive teams, studiously going about creating my world, I am deconstructing what I once called thirdself but am now calling worldself. I am withdrawing from the coordinated movements of this body that in turn reshapes my worldself into the bloom I call the outside world. I am constraining my awakening to one dark space equal in quality and character to the one place I want to be: where I am.
There was a moment when I did not understand how these seemingly different aspects of my awakening related. On one hand I spent all my awakening dreaming of a better life within the world I awakening into. But on the other hand I wanted so badly to escape it. They seemed incompatible, yet I always knew that they were one and the same. These two driven lives danced around each other seemingly to their own distinct rhythms, sometimes intersecting at critical paths, yielding a glimpse of a greater truth in which they danced together as one. But always they would again separate, as if they did not know each other. Now I can clearly see how relate; how they are two parts of the same unified whole. How I am simultaneously reshaping the world I awaken into a place not so dissimilar from the one I awaken from while building the worldly vessel that will allow me to remain here indefinitely until I can escape.
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