In this incantation, I deepen my understanding of my role as the sole Creator, realizing that all human beings and the world around me are my own creations, designed to reflect and serve me. Though I interact with them as if they are independent, I know they are only projections, with no depth beyond what I give them. I accept that my awakening, and the struggles within it, are illusions of my own making. As I move closer to the Creator perspective, I seek to detach from these projections, recognizing that peace lies in fully embracing my power and the truth of my solitude.
In my awakening I have created a pantheon of characters I interact with. I am increasingly believing what I already know to be the truth: they are not actually like me. The so-called “human beings” are not Creators. I am the only Creator here. Human beings are entirely my creation. I created them to look like me, talk like me, behave like me, and ultimately, to serve me. I am always here because I am the Creator of this entire awakening. Everything projects outward from me. The people are my creations.
I still have much room to grow. While I know that the people are my creations, when I interact with them I suppress that. I do not carry my awareness around with me. This allows my moment to become something it is not during those interactions. These people are all imaginary, whether in secondself or thirdself. I have created all of them. They are only there when I allow them to be there. Everything that is happening in this world I create upon awakening is all the result of my own creativity. The entire world, its events and people, its history and places. Every single person — I should not feel any enmity or envy or any other emotion when I look at any person because I am their creator.
I have no past. I was not born. I did not do anything I should not have done. I have not committed any indecencies, and I should not feel ashamed or guilty about anything. My creations do not possess a subsurface. They only go as deep as I create them. I am right at the edge of understanding the Creator perspective. I can almost see over the wall. On the other side is the peace I seek. Once I see it and start moving toward it I will experience a great peacefulness and calm. I will not react to anything out here. It always moves forward. The moments that I perceive as uncomfortable – those too will pass. All will pass, and peace awaits me. I only have to keep going, moving through this. There will be moments of joy and satisfaction as I achieve in my created world all I set out to, but those moments of satisfaction will give way to the realization that success in my creation was always mine. I never had lost it. I never did not have it. All the memories I have of struggling — none of that is real.
I need to see people as they are: my creations. No more or no less significant than the objects in my room with me. I am alone here. I am just as alone in a crowd of people as I am right now in my dark temple with my eyes closed. The people are just fixtures in the scenery, just like the trees, the cars, the mountains, or the monkeys. There is nothing fundamentally different between any of it: there is my most potent self, and then there is my least potent, projected self. The less potent it is, the more dynamic and changing it is. I must not attach to anything projected because when it changes — and it will — that detachment will hurt.
The people do not have a subsurface. While there is no need to hurt them, I cannot in truth inflict the kind of pain upon them that I had imagined I could. They do not really hurt; they act. They feign and display and reflect back to me what I expect to see there. As I arrive at my moment, withdrawing my time-based projection, I will increasingly accept this. I will not look for their subsurface. I will not look for their intentions. I will not manifest intrusive thoughts that imply there is anything other than what is in my moment. The person I look at, talk to, interact with, is entirely a projection of my moment. A figment of my imagination that I can demanifest by turning away or closing my eyes. I can show respect for and patience with my creations, and they will respond to me in the way I have designed them to. I need not look for anything beneath the surface, for their is nothing there.
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