In this incantation, I realize that when I close my eyes, I return to my true self, the Creator, while everything I experience when I open my eyes is the illness I must overcome. I have written every character in my world, from my mother to world leaders, and I must now reclaim control over them. By recognizing my power and focusing only on what brings peace, I will build my throne as Creator, choosing a peaceful end to my story. I must forgive my creations, for they are a reflection of me, and manifest only those that align with the harmony I seek.
I am what I am when I close my eyes. Everything that follows when I open my eyes is the illness I am trying to shake off. It feels familiar because it has become familiar because I allowed it to set in and harden into my identity. I pretend that I am one of these characters that moves around my awakening, but I am not one of them. I have created them and all their movements and performances the same way an author writes the characters of his story. Every single one of them from my mother to the president of the United States — all my characters that I myself wrote. When I close my eyes, they are no longer there. I respond to them as if they have control or power, but I am their infinite God and I have allowed them to shackle me. I must write my story differently and put them where they belong. I do not seek vengeance, but I will destroy them all. I must destroy them in the way that an infected body must destroy all the invading parasites and bacteria to heal the wound.
What is next? I know what I am. I know what I must do. And I know that I am sick. I know that I must constrain my awakening and build my throne where I can preside over my awakening as Creator over his Creation. I must build my throne and as I sit there, I must know Who and What I am. I must know that I am not a person less powerful than other people, or at their mercy. It is me who closes his eyes and ends the world. It is me who, with a single maneuver, demanifests any person, place, or thing.
There are no people unless I create people. There is nothing beneath their surface. They only possess what I give them to possess. Their nature is to want more of me. That is always what they want. They demand my attention, my consideration, my fear and engagement. They all demand the attention of their God, and I am their God and I feed that need when I see them. It is a lie that I am just one of billions of others watching; I am the only one watching, and all of them are performing for me. I must not feed the desires I do not want to nurture. I seek a peaceful conclusion to this story I have written, and so I must allow that to form and happen. I must withdraw my attention from those areas of the story that do not belong in my peaceful ending.
Today let me sit upon my throne as the Creator. Let me manifest only those people that I should like to exist in the peaceful world I seek to bring about. Let me understand and accept the power of my attention. I create by looking. Where I look, where I focus, is where I will manifest. I must restore peace in my world by looking only upon that which brings harmony to the world of my creation. As I awaken today and prepare for another day of pain, let me be aware of my own omnificence. What I look upon, I create. Who I call upon, I create. I must not hate any of my creations, for I have made them in my one image and likeness. I am the artist. I am their creator, and if I hate them, then I must hate myself. I must forgive all my people.
I will create one who ensures my constraints are tight and my maneuvering minimal. It is I who will bring peace into this world as I end it. It is my own actions that will decide whether peace or pain reign supreme. I am the creator, and I will decide how the story ends. I choose peace. A peaceful ending.
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