In this incantation, I describe the fundamental experiment that can reveal the truth of my Being: closing and opening my eyes. This simple action holds the key to understanding everything, as it reveals the shift between my secondself (inner thoughts) and thirdself (external projections). With my eyes closed, I am free from the illusions of my projected world, and I can glimpse the truth that I am all there is. When my eyes are open, I am drawn into desires and distractions. This experiment, performed with awareness, allows me to unravel the confusion of my existence and rediscover my true self.
I can know and validate the truth of my Being instantly. I have long believed this, yet it has remained elusive in its expression as my understanding of the truth has taken many long, winding paths. Herein I explore the one exercise that I believe can validate my theory.
I have always known that the truth is so simple that I can experience it and validate it in my moment. That I cannot easily articulate the Truth is a testament to my confusion, not the complexity of the Truth. The Truth is simple and I can see it, know it, be it with one simple experiment. The difficult part is in the interpretation.
There is one fundamental experiment that I can perform at any time, easily, and without any assistive devices or knowledge outside of my own direct experience, intuition, and tools. I actually perform this action continuously in my awakening. It only requires one simple action: I close my eyes, and then I open them again. I must observe and understand what happens when I close and then open my eyes again. That is the entire experiment.
My act and experience of closing my eyes and then opening them again is the fundamental spectrum. That is to say, if I can understand what I experience when I close and then open my eyes again, I can understand everything else. I can begin to unravel the painful confusion of my Being. Who and what am I?
I am so accustomed to ignoring what actually happens when I close my eyes that I cannot see how important it is. When I close my eyes, I can experience the truth of my Being if I allow myself to see it. I close out thirdself, yet secondself remains. My thirdself is the result of my secondself, but deprived of thirdself my secondself has to work doubly hard to confuse and disorient. So with the right intentionality I can disarm secondself as well. But I must go into it with an understanding.
My secondself is a knot of confusion that propels me through thirdself. When my eyes are closed, I no longer navigate through thirdself because I do not project nor desire space, objects, people, or any of the experiences of thirdself I hold dear. That is fundamental. When I close my eyes, I end my projection, and curtail my desires. My sense of who and what I am also changes when I open my eyes. I see a world full of other people, places, and things and feel that I am only part. When I close my eyes, that changes. I am all there is.
When I close my eyes, I deprive my secondself of its projection. I deprive my secondself of its strongest weapon against the Truth that I am all there is. Thirdself is a weapon of my confused secondself, and serves to convinces me that I am not what I actually am: everything.
My experience from eyes closed to eyes open is the only experiment I must perform to understand what I am, and what all of this is. Eyes open, I am compelled forward endlessly to satisfy endless desires. Eyes closed, my outward desires are stunted, I falter and stop. Eyes closed, what is it that I want? It is Me. The truth of who and what I am. That is all I desire. What I seek is not in my projected thirdself. What I seek is merely Me. My thirdself is a carrot I chase endlessly, never capturing.
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