Everything in my awakening is a probe. The people are all probes… probing me for my next move and informing the illness. The illness is a single-minded organism, collecting information from me through all its various agents that manifest as individual people. They share their information with the collective, anticipating my next move and shapeshifting in order to keep me here, confused and lost. If I am not lost here, they do not exist. I feed and nourish them by awakening.
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