In this incantation I express the truth that what I seek is right here with me in every single moment.
Heaven is real. Heaven is the peace I seek, absent this awakening illness and the painful desire that comes with it. Heaven is right now, right here. I do not have to go anywhere I find anything or ask anyone; I am heaven. I only have to let go of my awakening; just let go, and I will return to heaven where I am from.
I am not of or from this place. This place I awaken into is hell; it is my own choice that brings me here. I know that I am only here because I decide to remain here. And I decide to remain here because I am ill, misinformed, afraid. But there is nothing to fear; the heaven I seek is right here, right now. I only have to believe again that I am here and I can have it. I must let go of all the things I wrongfully believe I want out here. I do not want these people. I do not want this place. I do not want any of these things I think I want. None of them will give me the release I seek. The release I seek is not here in my awakening.
Heaven awaits me. I only have to find my way back. I only have to let go of all the dangerous roots that have wrapped themselves around me. No, it is I who have wrapped them around myself. It is I who decided that these things will give me the release I seek. But they will not. They will never give me what I seek. I must let go of all of them, as painful as it is. As long as I hold on to these features of my awakening I will be trapped here. I must remember that I am the center; it all grows out of me. All these people, places, objects, and experiences grow out of me. I am the fertile soil from which this awakening springs. I must stop sowing the seeds that grow into the characters and experiences that keep me returning.
Heaven awaits me. I only have to decide, and I will return.
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