Everything is motion.
There’s a fragile relationship between the motion of my existence and the meaning I attribute to it. On the one hand, it is all tightly bound together – there are events unfolding in chronological succession with specific meaning. A “life” is happening with attributes with names and agreements. That life, succinctly, is my person.
On the other hand, there is simply the motion of an amorphous mass of no particular meaning or significance layered over an “observer”. The Observer itself is, in essence, what is called “me” or “I” in both realities.
The Observer is never extinguished. He has no gender or qualities; It is distorted by the motion that has been hardened into meaning. A box is but energy formed to contain other movement. All words are derivations of motion. All physical things are motion in an impermanent semi solid state. As long as my person holds on, meaning will be divided upon itself.
I just recognized the Observer in Maurice. And It recognized Me. The sensation was fairly intense and lasted some time.
The Observer is never stuck; he’s lost by my person. My person is lost in a forest of meaning preserved in dead energy patterns. My person can give way to the Observer so the Observer can come through, despite my person.
To the Observer, all simply is. There is no more or no less. To my person, there is both more and less, for my person is a distortion. The Observer is eternal; my person is fleeting.
Let’s try this again:
Under and before my person is an Observer. My person is the layer of stagnant meaning piled atop the Observer. My person is an aggregation of motion captured and stored as meaning, obscuring the Observer from simply observing. My person is a coating, a film on top of the Observer. My person is a lens fitted to the Observer. The death of my person is the release of the Observer. The Observer does not end. The Observer persists indefinitely for the Observer exists before time. Time is one of the first of my person’s many layers.
My person is everything that is not the Observer. My person is everything after the Observer. The Observer is always. My person is lost. The Observer does not move; my person is always in motion. When my person moves, the Observer is still. When my person wants, the Observer is still. When my person hurts, the Observer is still.
The Observer is all. My person doesn’t realize that. My person can yield to the Observer and the Observer will reveal. My person can create new meaning, or my person can destroy it.
Every person is like my person. Every person is a growth on the Observer. Every growth is a formation of meaning and motion. Behind every person is the Observer. The Observer can move the Person, but the Person is in control in this shared experience called Life. The relinquishing of control back to the Observer is death.
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What does the Observer want? Is the Observer inclined toward the kindness and gentleness of the spiritual? I don’t think the Observer wants anything. I think the Person is a wild eddy of titillation, pain and conflict, and the Observer is not. The Observer isn’t polarized any one way or another.
So what did I do last night? I called the Observer. I set the Person aside and let the Observer in. The Observer is normally obscured and stifled by the Person. The perspective of the Observer precedes the perspective of the Person. The Person is mired in perceived circumstance — constraints, aspirations, insecurities, conflicts, and meaning. The Observer is not.
Can the Person and the Observer interact? I don’t think the Observer necessarily wants the Person to achieve any one thing or another. The Observer isn’t “on my side” to become wealthy or successful. The Observer isn’t rooting for my Person or anyone else. The Observer doesn’t want. The Person wants. The Observer is.
What is the nature of the Observer, and how can the Person use the Observer? The Observer isn’t thinking. The Person thinks. But because the Observer is within all Beings (changed from “person”, to include animals), the Observer can communicate with all. The Observer can be a communication channel. A message can be sent down and back to the Observer, which will in turn impact all Beings.
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