How to make sense of the different layers of origination? I am typing on my laptop right now, which I experience as a collection of firm objects I press against to generate specific actions and words with meaning upon a rectangular-shaped, lit display. If I make a Secondself choice, I can experience Thirdself elasticity by examining the object deeper. I can dwell upon the company that made this computer, and all the business, mechanical, human, and market forces that resulted in it being here on my lap. I can imagine the entire history of actors and events that made it possible. This is my secondself and thirdself working together to create an elastic experience. My secondself directs my awareness toward a specific form in Thirdself (the company Apple), which generates supportive Thirdself objects supporting the narrative. I can read all about Apple, and even directly experience it by coordinating my movements to physically see the Apple building.
But none of my secondself decisions and actions or thirdself projections undermine my firstself origination. If I do not awaken, I do not project any part of thirdself. Thirdself does not exist without me projecting it. The same goes for secondself. Secondself only exists when I awaken. What I call the company “Apple” must be experienced through secondself, like a website must be experienced through a browser. I project thirdself through secondself. But who and what is projecting? That is firstself. Firstself is projecting thirdself through secondself and onto the walls of firstself.
I awaken in a cave full of wonders, and I come to want those wonders and believe that I am a person in this cave desiring these wonders. I forget that it was I who entered the cave. That it was I who decided to create the cave, and then enter it. Yet I can fully demonstrate this to myself by simply exiting the cave by closing my eyes. But I do not believe that I exit the cave when I close my eyes. I believe the save is still there, and prove this to myself because when I open my eyes back up, the cave is surely there. But what I am actually proving is that I believe I am a person in a cave. I prove that it is my own conviction that there is a cave and I am a person within it, that generates my experience of personhood within the cave.
Origination is how and where my awakening experience is created. When I ascribe creation to Thirdself, I accept that my Secondself “I” was not part of it. That opens the door to “otherness” — something that is not “me” being responsible for parts of my experience. But when I introduce Firstself as the sovereign creator of all, and accept that Firstself is the “true me” rather than Secondself, I can see my true powers as the creator. Yes, when I believe that I am a person in the cave I can accept that other people in the cave created parts of it that I — a person in the cave — did not. However, when I step back and realize that I am the being who created the cave and then entered it, I can see my authorship.
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