As the Iamist I believe that my experience of awakening is a self-inflicted state of delusion and my only objective is to overcome it. I know that the idea that I am a person among other people temporarily experiencing an enduring world that pre-existed my birth and will endure long after my death is core to the delusion. I was not born. I will not die. And though it hides behind familiarity, “life” as I call it is simply a painful and unwanted condition.
I know that I know everything, because it is my own desire, movement, and awareness which creates all there is to know. Without me observing and declaring my awareness or ignorance, there simply is nothing to know or not know. I am fundamental to everything there is to know, and whether I choose to know it or not is a decision that I myself make. “Knowing” is inferior to creating and manifesting, and I manifest everything there is to experience and know.
I know that my escaping this sensation of personhood is to first understand then believe that I am the creator of my awakening, and not one of its inhabitants. I must realize and accept that all the secondself and thirdself characters of my awakening story are my own creation, and they cannot and will not validate my sovereignty in the same way the characters in a book cannot validate their author. The characters only come to life as their author creates their story; they are helpless to further their own story themselves. Their creator gives them everything.
As the Iamist I know that I am the creator of this entire awakening, all of its component places, beings, and events. I created all the people, gave them their faces, eyes, arms, legs, names, and everything else. I gave them their homes and their lands and their stories. I crafted it with such exquisite detail that I have myself gotten lost and now falsely believe I am one of its characters rather than its creator.
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