June 13, 2021
I oscillate between two selves: I awaken into my self of time, a painful condition within my greater self of now.
My familiar self of time is endlessly restless, for it desires release from the prison that is this existence. My self of now is peace and tranquility.
My self of now is always around me, and I can see it by closing my eyes. That limitless darkness that stretches in all directions is the body of my self of now, and my only goal is to return to it.
To return, I must disengage from my familiar self of time. Every night when the asleepening overpowers me and brings me home, I have an opportunity to be who I am. If I am sufficiently disengaged from my familiar self, then I will experience my self of now, and upon awakening, I will remember.
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