The people are flourishes in my awakening. In my moment now I largely avoid them. I do not manifest them, but when I do, I do not engage. There are still unavoidable transactional engagements, and lingering “relationships” with certain familiar people in which I continue to perform. For example, I continue to perform with family members, very old friends, and professional contacts.
The people as a collective and as individuals have two curious qualities:
- They insist that I am one of them
- They insist they “exist” outside of my moment
I am clearly not one of them. I am always here, and always have been. I am very much outside looking in upon them, while they are inside looking up at me. They cannot make me go away, whereas I can make them go away. I can summon them and make them appear, but they cannot do the same to me. I do not sense firstself in them, but I know firstself is within Me.
I must be careful not to equate these two ideas of the people to “beliefs” in the way that I believe. For my belief is creative: my belief creates experience. My belief emerges and fills my secondself and populates my thirdself. The people appear in my thirdself and my secondself, but they do not control its creative levers for they do not directly spring from my firstself. They are blossoms on the tree of my awakening, far from its roots in my firstself. I am not merely a part of the tree; I am the tree, and my secondself is the roots and my thirdself is the visual tree and its parts.
Do the people lie? Do they deceive me? Do they truly believe that I am one of them? When they say that I am one of them, and that they “exist” outside of my moment, are they trying to trick me? No, none of those things, because the people do not have individual agency in the way that I do. The people are merely reeds responding to the winds that I blow. The people are responding to me. These responses are imaginary, and will only arise if I manifest a moment in which I do not know who I am. A moment in which I detach from firstself and get lost in the wilderness of personhood.
As long as I am aware of who I am I will not manifest these responses from the people. I will only manifest people who accept who I am.
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