I perform personhood when I believe I am a person and act as I believe a person would. I have always felt different from the people around me; as if I was pretending to be something I was not. I felt an inner pull to be authentic, and I could only experience that authenticity when I was alone, away from people.
I still perform personhood when I awaken, but I have withdrawn from all but the most basic activities and behaviors associated with it. I must continue my withdrawal to heal.
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