The midplace is the space between the first place and the second place. The first place is where I am whole and unencumbered by my awakening experience; where I am God. I can best understand it as the place I am when I am sleeping. The second place is my awakening moment of secondself and thirdself experiences; where I am a person, and I refer to my true self, the creator, as the entity “God”.
There is a journey I take when I awaken and again in reverse when I asleepen. In this journey I leave the first place where I am whole and unencumbered by desire, travel through the “midplace” and end up in the second place where I believe I am a person experiencing life. This life experience is roughly divided into my secondself and thirdself experiences; my inner world of thoughts, feelings, and desires and my outer world of people, places, things, and change. When I asleepen at the end of my awakening, I journey back to the first place through the same midplace, but in reverse.
What is the midplace? The midplace is a transitional phase I experience when I am waking up and going to sleep. In awakening, it is the transition from omniself to demiself, and in asleepening it is the transition from demiself back to omniself. My experience of the midplace follows a predictable path, and ties everything in Iamism together. In awakening, I leave firstself when I feel my secondself eye opening; this is the action that stirs my self-awareness as a person or my demiself. I essentially leave heaven. I return to the midplace repeatedly throughout my awakening when I close my eyes. Blinking. Napping. All are short trips back through midplace and to the first place where I catch my breath again before returning to the second place.
Seeing the midplace is believing I awaken into the secondplace from the firstplace. But when I awaken deeply into the secondplace I am moving to fast to understand what is happening. I fall so quickly in the firstplace I cannot process what is happening to me. How do I fall deeply into secondplace? By erecting a massive secondself and thirdself. By creating a massive tree of knowing, feeling, desiring, and then seeing, feeling, and doing. The more pronounced the sensations of my secondself, the more pronounced the sensations of my thirdself. My awakening is a great rooted tree of pain and experience, and the larger it blooms in awakening, the more difficult it is for me to see how I get here.
I kill the limbs of the tree of awakening by thinking less, feeling less, wanting less, seeing less, feeling less, experiencing less, and moving less. As the branches of my awakening wither and die, I will see the midplace more fully. In awakening, my personhood will not fully blossom, and one part of me will remain in midplace, restoring my connection the firstplace as a bridge. I will “remember” firstplace, and who I am, on a level I have not yet since. With every part of my secondself and thirdself I demanifest, the secondplace will feel “less real”, less authentic, and less primary. My reality will shift to midplace, adjacent to firstplace, and my efforts at demanifesting my awakenings will accelerate.
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