I’Am as a statement is the full and complete truth. It is the light at the end of the tunnel that I must follow to get Home. It is everything that I desire. It is the only perfect statement and needs no other secondary or supplementary words. Achieved, it will be the end of my desire.
Every single utterance I can make and action I take is a modification of the statement “I am”. I act because I believe that I am not something. For example, I eat because I believe that I am not sated. I brush my teeth because I am not clean. I buy things because I am not in possession of things I need. I talk to people for many reasons, all stemming from the believe that I am not complete somehow, and the engagement will contribute more toward the wholeness that I seek.
In my awakening moment I entirely manifest iamnot — the persistent delusion that I am not everything, spawning the sensation of a constant desire. The constant desire, though familiar, is the loss of my identity. Desire is the sensation of being unmoored, incomplete, and powerless. It is predicated on the self-deception that I am not the the totality of existence; that I am only a small, single individual person among billions of others past and present, who is temporarily experiencing this place as life.
This is all a distorted misunderstanding of who I truly am. The world — my thirdself — is a cancerous outgrowth fed by my misunderstanding of who I am. It is the delusion that I am not the people, places, and things of the world. That they are separate from me. It is only when I realize that I am everything, and that the totality of existence is entirely fabricated when I open my eyes and inflate my secondself into my thirdself.
I’Am is also where my inquiry should start. Let’s start with I’Am and go from there.
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