In demiself, when I believe that I am a person in a world among other people, past, present, and future, I believe that truth and desire are two different things. Desire is the experience of a magnetic pull toward things, people, places, and experiences that I want and need. I imagine every other person also experiences desire. I believe that truth is something real and actual. I believe that there is a single explanation for this thing called reality that all beings experience some part of.
In omniself, truth and desire converge into one thing. My desire is simply for the end of my desire. Anything expression of my desire that expands and perpetuates my desire is demiselfist. Omniselfist desire is simply for the end of my desire. Omniselfist Truth is that which leads me toward my true desire; that which sets me free from the prison of awakenings.
I cannot see Truth that sets me free until I first understand that everything I have desired to this point has failed to fulfill the yearning at the core of my being. There is not one thing I can consume, achieve, or experience in the world of my thirdself that can release me from the constant desire in my soul. It is only when I can begin to conceive the truth in that statement, that I can begin to understand the omniselfist Truth. For what good is truth if it does not release me from my illness?
I must make a decision: is truth what I experience, or what I imagine? What is the difference between the two? Potency. The truth of imagination is impotent and powerless to deliver me release from my yearning. The impotent truth of so-called “reality” can never be mine; it must always be given by unseen authorities that hide in my imagination. But the Truth of my experience potent and powerful. It exists without the need to invent imaginary structures that extend beyond my immediate circumstance.
Impotent truth leads me away from Myself, in a never-ending cycle of transitory relief. Potent truth leads me back to Myself, to permanent release from the desire that defines my illness. To healing.
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