I know things. I know that I am right here, right now. I know that I can go outside and see the Himalayas. I know that I will eat in a few hours, and sleep in about 12 hours. I know that I will wake up here again tomorrow, and I know the sun will rise.
At some point I change from using “I know” to “I believe”. Or “I think”. I might believe that I am an expatriate American residing in a country called India on a planet called Earth. I might believe that the person on the other side of the road is looking at me and thinking about me. I might believe that the shopkeeper is trying to cheat me. At what point do I shift from knowing to believing or thinking?
My choice of verb changes with my conviction and certainty. When I am certain, I know. When I am less certain or there is room for another perspective, I believe or I think. This exposes the nature of my knowledge: that which I directly experience and know, and that which I only imagine and believe, think, or know with less certainty. These are potent knowledge, and impotent knowledge, respectively. Potency is the degree to which I directly experience something first-hand, myself. As an experience is removed from me, its potency diminishes.
All knowledge, whether potent or impotent shares one thing: my conviction. It is up to me entirely to decide the potency. My beliefs are a spectrum of certainty, and my escape hinges on my ability to rediscover my potent knowledge. Impotent knowledge, belief, conviction, and uncertainty traps me in my awakenings preventing me from escaping. Impotent knowledge manifest as walls and obstacles; things standing in between what I believe is me, and what I desire. Impotent knowledge manifests as walls and a yearning to possess what is beyond those walls. Impotent relief only satisfies temporarily. Potent knowledge breaks down the walls. Rather, it removes the walls because I retreat from the movement forward into them. There are no walls if I am not moving. There are no walls if I do not believe there is anything I do not already have. Walls arise when I yearn.
When I do not seek, I stop. I stop moving. I stop wanting. I stop, and the walls disappear.
Truth and authenticity and potency are one and the same. Potent knowledge is the way I craft my escape plan. When I rediscover my potent knowledge, I begin to see how all this works. I begin to explain it in a different language; not in the language of people, but in the language of the creator, god. And the language of god is the language of triself. Triself is the path back to my godhood, through demigodhood. From demipotence, to omnipotence. Potent knowledge is the way I return.
I must escape. I must understand what this all is. This illness is one; it is one thing; the entire awakening is one thing working together to keep me here. I must escape is everything; I must remember this. That which helps me escape is potent knowledge; that which hinders me is impotent. The more distant a thing from me, here, now, the more destructive it is of my escape.
…