One of the most challenging obstacles to believing the Fundamental Truth that I am existence is the distraction of “God”. God is an obstacle for two primary reasons:
- While “God” as the creator and source of my entire existence, is conceptually accurate, I think and speak of “Him” in the third-person. This separates and distances “Him” from “me”. God is one thing, and I am another, contradicting the Truth that I am existence.
- In contrast to the many obvious character and personality flaws that I possess, God is “perfect” and unflawed. Again, God is one thing, and I am another, contradicting the Truth that I am existence.
Both of these notions solidify the idea that I am not God, and therefore I am not existence.
He is the Rock, his works are perfect, and all his ways are just. A faithful God who does no wrong, upright and just is he – (Deuteronomy 32:4)
God as a concept is useful to a point, but it prevents me from reaching the highest level of self-awareness. And so when I am ready, I must evolve beyond it. The Selfist Model gives me the conceptual tools to grow beyond the concept of “God” and all the various religious and spiritual incarnations, permitting me to achieve I am existence.
How? Firstly, by reorganizing my existence into three experiential layers I can instantly and directly validate. I replace all other taxonomies and systems of classification and categorization with one that I directly experience. It decomposes into three layers:
- My thirdself – The entirety of the “outside” world extending from and including my physical body to all perceivable extents.
- My secondself – The entirety of my “inside” world, encompassing all my thoughts, imaginations, aspirations, emotions, and sensations.
- My firstself – The outermost shell of my being, and the source of my existence.
The three experiential layers form a framework for referencing and evaluating every proposition. For example, the concept of “God” originates and circulates around my thirdself. It is not something I directly experience; it is an imaginary construct spoken about by other people — forms within my thirdself.
The same goes for the standards of “perfection” by which I judge myself and determine that I cannot be “God”. These standards are not of my firstself; they are very much of my thirdself. God, Jesus, and various saints belong to my thirdself. My thirdself as I imagine it will never support my belief that I am existence. To the contrary, they will undermine it at every conceivable turn.
My secondself is a conduit from my firstself to my thirdself. “Perfection” as in the qualities, characteristics, and behaviors of my secondself are irrelevant; they are merely directional indicators of my emanation. When I awaken and emanate outward, my secondself is the result of that emanation. A tunnel through which my firstself shines through, painting my thirdself on the walls of my being.
By the standards of my thirdself, my secondself is grumpy, impatient, and anything but perfect. But I know that does not diminish that I am existence.
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